“I deserve to have peace. I deserve to be happy and smiling.”
Kid Cudi has checked himself into rehab for “depression and suicidal urges.”
In an emotional Facebook post last night (October 4), the Ohio rapper describes feeling “ashamed” about his struggles with depression, writing: “I am not at peace. I haven’t been since you’ve known me. If I didn’t come here, I would’ve done something to myself. I simply am a damaged human swimming in a pool of emotions everyday of my life. Theres a ragin violent storm inside of my heart at all times. Idk what peace feels like. Idk how to relax.”
He continues: “My anxiety and depression have ruled my life for as long as I can remember and I never leave the house because of it. I can’t make new friends because of it. I don’t trust anyone because of it and Im tired of being held back in my life. I deserve to have peace. I deserve to be happy and smiling. Why not me? I guess I give so much of myself to others I forgot that I need to show myself some love too. I think I never really knew how. I’m scared, I’m sad, I feel like I let a lot of people down and again, I’m sorry. It’s time I fix me. I’m nervous but ima get through this.”
Cudi, aka Scott Mescudi, explains that his forthcoming album Passion, Pain & Demon Slayin will be promoted by his label because he wanted to “square away all the business” before checking into the rehabilitation centre. He signs off the statement with: “I’ll be back, stronger, better. Reborn.” Read the full post here.
Mescudi was signed to Kanye West’s G.O.O.D Music imprint in 2008 and put out a number of releases, before leaving the label in 2013. He is widely credited with inspiring the electronic sound of West’s 2008 album 808s & Heartbreak. Last month, Cudi hit out at Kanye West and the wider music industry in a series of tweets, slamming artists who have “30 people write songs for them,” specifically namechecking West and Drake, while alleging that both artists had turned their back on his career.